Like this:

One week at cimanggis.
So many part of my life I wanna delete and forget.
Coz I’m ready to write down another new story of my life..
But still..as always.. She’s the one who open up my scars..
I though someone in her position, should be the one that protect my heart, my feelings..hug me..
I know I’ve a few mistakes in my past,,but I’ve take my consequences of it. I’ve take my punishment from people judgment faces..
Every time i’m here..she always mentioned and even show places that I’ve been in my horrible past. And so many other things from my past. She doesn’t have to do that..I already knew..but it seems that she enjoyed it. I don’t know what she gain up for.
I just shut my mouth. I’m sad. So sad. Deep inside I’m crying. But I don’t think anyone can understand my sadness..
For not stay here..people point at me..as I’m a bad daughter who left her behind.
But am I wrong, coz I wanna find and stay at my peace full place..?
I just wanna find peace for my heart.
Nothing more, nothing less.
However,,,I love u..but I’m sorry mom…. I just hope and pray I’ll be a better mom for my daughter..
Hiks..
Last but no least.
Forgive me Lord Jesus… :’(

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